well it’s 10:00 on a banal Wednesday night and I’m sitting in my own personal jail cell listening to this song called the way I am by some Ingrid chick. It’s exactly the type of typical “trying to be indie” kind of crap that I secretly love. The fact that I can stomach this song only leads me to the conclusion that I really do like a large variety of different kinds of music. All genres….almost.
alright enough, time for some nirvana served with a steaming platter of self loathing. I find it almost impossible to listen to nirvana and not end up hating your being or any being for that matter.
Today went by painfully slow, as will all my remaining days as the ayre’s family bitch. These next 7 days are going to be sheer torture. It’s just awk because I’m sure they know that I don’t want to be in Hinsdale anymore than I want to be in utah aka land of dry skin aka my death. At least the kids are going back to school next week, I’m running out of ways to entertain them without like lighting my self on fire and doing a little dance.
“do a little dance, make a little love, get down tonight.” HAH, unlikely.
I’m in a very cynical mood right now, perhaps because I finished sloppy seconds in one day and that book is as cynical as Kendra from the girls next door is stupid. Hence, my cynical, sarcastic, and (sad attempt at being) witty @itude.
@itude, hah, it just goes to show that I can never cease to amuse myself. I’m probs my biggest fan when it comes to my humor, that’s kind of sad.
I realized that my life is kind of sad, not in a boohoo way, in a way wow-i-am-pathetic-get-a-fucking-grip kind of way. With the new year I’m going to try and just laugh at myself more. I do that a lot because I never fail to make myself look a lot less intelligent then I actually am. although I am trying to keep any sort of smiling slash laughter to a minimum and not because I am trying to be emo, but because my fake tooth fell off of my retainer and it looks bogus. I’m a girl, I’m allowed to get vain about missing teeth, sue me.
well its about that time for my bedtime antihistamine cocktail (as i cannot seem to kick this cold, man fuck winter in it's frosty ass) followed by some floor lounging while listening to third eye blind. Then I will watch the latest gossip girl that I downloaded from itunes and hate myself for watching it and giving in to my girly tendencies.
“serve the servants, oh no.” 10:22 pm
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