stages of insanity

sometimes i wonder if i'm going crazy....temporarily insane? do you ever feel like you're alone on this planet? you're thoughts, dreams, secret ambitions (not so secret ambitions) don't make any sense and no one can or will try to relate to you? this is something i think about. is what i want in life completely crazy? do i expect too much of myself? of others? will i ever know what i want to do with my remaining years...who i'm going to spend them with? i tell myself that this is a normal thought routine of us teenagers who have recently been forced to grow up (i.e. college or any experience that requires you to face your future...jesus). but sometimes i don;t know...the thoughts i have, the ways i feel, does anyone else feel like i do? am i going crazy or is the world going crazy? life is so complicated now......the world is like this giant mechanical device in which we all make up parts that make it work....everything is systematic and society has this instruction book of how we are suposed to live our lives... i don;t like that. i want to be me without feeling like i failed, but without being part of the machine where money is everything and sex sells anything, but maybe these are just characteristics of my own utopia. fuck, what is the world coming to? i often feel like i was born in the wrong decade, like i dont belong in the 2000's. the 60's and 70's would have been idyllic, i could have lived the crazy life and be so gone by now that i wouldnt have to care that the world and moral values is going to hell. jesus, i sound emo..forgive me, sometimes i have a hard time getting my thoughts in order