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“so this is the new year, and I don’t feel any different.”

It’s true, it is now 2008 and I really don’t feel any different. But was I expecting to? I don’t think so, I cant really say that I was expecting anything. I honestly don’t see what is so special about new years anyways, like omg the year changed…cuz it doesn’t do that every year. Woohoo, let’s get wasted or some shit. Except I didn’t even get wasted.

2007 was quite a year for me, a lot happened and a lot didn’t happen. I went through various stages of finding myself, some of those stages (like the infamous slutty, stupid, bitch stage) were not good and some were. I guess they were all necessary steps in becoming who I am at this juncture in my life.

What really happened even? graduating, moving back to Evanston, and my baby brother being born are the only big milestones I can think of, that and like going to college and then leaving but fuck that. I’m trying to repress that memory. I drank a lot, smoked a lot, hooked up with dudes cuz I was a moron (and still am in that department…although I no longer slut it up like I used to), and I learned a lot about myself and what I want…at least I think I did…maybe.

I am glad that I made a lot of new friends, it's amazing how you meet people. thank you anne-marie.

I look back at 2007 and feel like some of it never happened. I look back and wish that some of it never happened.

I guess it’s stupid to be regretful about certain elements of 2007 because it happened and me wishing it hadn’t doesn’t change anything. I need to stop dwelling on the past.

I need to stop being so fucking emo, good lord.

Ok..new years resolutions
1) lose weight (duh) but in a healthy way
2) excersise daily, which I guess ties in resolution numero uno but whatevs
3) have more self confindence
4) not be so emo, i'm suffocating myself with my emonosity, seriously. even that phrase was emo.
5) learn slash gain more intelligence then i have already aquired (heh heh, that was me being arrogant)
6) not be a moron when it comes to boyzzzz
7) stop beating myself up about stupid shit
8) volunteer at least once a week

I guess that’s a pretty good list yeah? I feel like they are all attainable which is a good thing. I just need the motivation to get ‘er done, which is rather difficult as I am probs one of the laziest people on the planet.

2008….i wonder if it’ll be more exciting that 2007. I’m very much looking forward to see how it will unfold. 4:33 pm